Thursday, May 24, 2007

Where to turn...

As a whole I am a positive person, but sometimes spanking just plain gets me down. I feel the main reason is I have no one I can talk too. I have the best wife in the world who I can talk to about anything... well except spanking, she just does not understand. When I have tried she feels threatened, controlled, distant, I know it hurts our relationship. As time goes on, I bury my feelings, don't bring it up and try to forget about it. I become more isolated and feel more alone. I can't believe how hard it has become, its is part of me and is in my soul, I have come to the realization that I can't make it go away. Now what, I would feel guilty being spanked by someone else and can't be honest with my wife. I feel trapped and depressed. Looking for any suggestions?